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Post by Maxisms on Feb 24, 2015 7:37:31 GMT
This is a very important topic, and it would mean a lot to me if you guys can share your experiences.
If you've read Hot Sissy, you've seen that myself and the people around me used drugs to avoid actually feeling the things that were going on at the time. If you think the book was exalting these things, you may have missed the point. If you can (anonymous is fine), please share your experiences with drugs and drug abuse (both prescription and illegal) both with yourself and those around you.
-How have drugs affected you, your relationships and your future? -What are some of the positive experiences you've had? -Have you gotten in trouble with your health or the law? Have you lost anyone close to you? -Do you have a drug problem? If so, what happened that made you finally realize it? -What have you learned in regard to this theme and what are you still struggling with?
I know this is a tough topic guys, but it's really important. Thanks!
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Post by peter on Feb 25, 2015 8:52:13 GMT
I'm currently at college and get stressed out probably 60% of the time. Maths is my weak subject and really gets at me so I get high on weed before class. I'm not saying it's good but it does help me relax more And it's not like I use it everyday just once a week.
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Post by Maxisms on Feb 25, 2015 9:00:54 GMT
Peter, sounds like college. If you've read my book, you know I'm not exactly against weed, as long as it's not being used to hide from problems. Thanks for you contribution here. I think this is the most important thread…
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Post by ancienneregina on Feb 27, 2015 14:01:26 GMT
Brother, thank so very much for the topic. I've been there, i.e., addiction. It kills! Addiction has affected my life and family so significantly. I count my blessings and breath - every morning. So I begin my day with positive/inspirational literature or poetry. I'll do a movement exercise of joy, life and breath. Of course they affected my relationships, of the past. I identify as an ecstatic and go for it, daily. When I came out, well I'll leave that for the coming-out sub-forum. No trouble with the law, very gratefully and sheer luck. Health -- Yes - substance dependence absolutely affected my social, psychological and spiritual development. Both parents died of secondary causes of active addiction. Most grandparents troubled by alcohollism. Life-long struggle with intimacy, yet, hell of a lot better than when I was in my 20s and 30s. Grateful that I have my sanity, health, and energy. I have very high energy for an 'ole queen. Though fairly masculine but enjoy moments of soft and hard living. Peace
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Post by james101 on Feb 28, 2015 1:55:53 GMT
I tried cocaine....never again✋
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Post by Jay on Mar 3, 2015 0:56:50 GMT
Hi, Max. I just ordered Hot Sissy (Kindle version) and from hotsissy.com, I found my way here.
I was way into drugs, and afterwards drinking, until I was 32. I started out smoking pot. I'm from the hippie generation, so I didn't drink until I was 24. Pot came first, then speed. I stuck with speed throughout college, presumably to write papers and study for tests, but the truth was, I became addicted. Those days, people thought heroin was the only addictive drug, so I never shot up.
I first started smoking pot because it gave me something to do with one of my girlfriends' (a girl who was just a friend) boyfriends. I was 16. He would know places to get drugs in NYC. He introduced me to speed about a year into our friendship -- I never got into his pants -- and speed was the best thing that ever happened to me. I'm introverted, and speed brought me out of myself. Suddenly, I could talk (I never shut up when I was speeding). But it was hard to find, and I ended up doing it not that often until I started college, where all sorts of drugs were suddenly available.
When I was a junior, I fell in love with a guy for the first time in my life. We did quaaludes, tuinals, seconals, etc., together. Plus I continued using speed at night. He was straight. He was kind of disgusted when I told him, and it broke my heart. I was definitely "hiding from problems," as you put it. My drug use got worse and worse until I woke up one morning with a 105 fever on the living room floor of two guys I'd never met before. I ended up in the hospital, blah, blah, blah.
I started doing drugs because I was so sad about being gay--about being abnormal. I was a cute guy. I had girlfriends (the sex kind, though I only had real sex with two of them), but I knew I really wanted boys. I knew I didn't fit in anywhere. This is before Stonewall. Before anyone came out. I literally thought I was the only gay boy in the world. Then I discovered the sex park/hitchhiking avenue next to my college. I found that perhaps more depressing than no sex at all. I was thrilled when I fell in love. But no go. He was an orthodox Jew, and he couldn't even be friends anymore (orthodox Jews dressed like everyone else those days, not the black outfits).
So I kept going in and out of addiction. I wish there had been some kind of "recovery" consciousness in the early '70s, but there wasn't, and I soldiered on until the early '80s, when I got sober from alcohol, my last "drug of choice."
This is supposed to be a quick reply, so I'm going to stop now.
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Post by Maxisms on Mar 3, 2015 5:32:43 GMT
ancienneregina - good share. thank you. I know it's not easy to be honest about that stuff
Jay- waking up on the living room floor is usually a good sign to turn things around. I'm glad you got there. I appreciate your posts, they offer a lot of perspective. Thanks for buying my book, I definitely think you'll relate.
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Post by ohshititsjonny on Mar 24, 2015 0:46:44 GMT
Hi Max, Where I am (Ireland #ew), theres a lot of drink and drugs abuse here, especially with people my age. I usually get a shitton of hate from people because I am against all of it, but yet I always find myself caught in a web of lying to peoples families about them drinking and smoking and shit and I seriously hate it! That coupled with my depression has seriously caused me to go into social isolation - I dont get invited out, I dont go to discos or clubs, hell i dont even hang out with my friends in town or our local mall. I'm not going to lie, I have been tempted to do all that stuff with everyone else but ive always stopped myself. And, since i'm not lying, I have to say that I'm scared. I dont want all of this stuff to become the thing that everyone has to do, and I'm just finding it so hard to be around people like that... Idk im ranting now, yeah thats my view on the topic really :/
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Post by kariki on Apr 7, 2015 13:08:53 GMT
I cant say about drugs because havent try. Alcohol is something i know. I used to drink alot. (Redwine, whitewine, whisky, beer, brandy...etc) I had a friend and everytime we meet...it was about alcohol. First we try to drink like you supposed...glass of wine in a dinner. Soon it was out of control...every weekend. Sometimes in weekdays. It affect my work and school.I was thired all the time. I mean it was not fun anymore. All we did was; drink before bar, drink in a bar and drink after.
My friend move to otherside of Finland. I understood i had problem. I was sober for 6 months. I know i had to stop.
It really felt good..now im free from alchol. I can go bars and drink one beer and hang out whit friends. No more hangover or headache. Kari
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Post by Maxisms on Apr 9, 2015 17:32:12 GMT
ohshititsjonny it takes time but eventually you get a new network… and you'll find those people to be a lot more productive. You're making the right choices man, keep it up!
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Post by AH on Apr 16, 2015 19:33:08 GMT
I used alcohol as a coping mechanism; instead of drinking to be social or to go out, I'd just drink to get drunk or black out. No one ever told me that my drinking was out of control, and it got to a certain point where friends and family could not even tell whether I had had a few drinks in me or not. It was all fun and games until i failed out of college because of my drinking. Instead of this being a "wake up call" I probably desperately needed and was searching for, it unfortunately did the exact opposite. I had to move back home, so I lost contact with the social network I had during college. And my old friends had made their own college connections - I was pretty much isolated, which made me depressed, which caused me to drink more and more. And once again, family and friends could not tell whether or not I was drunk. And I always told myself things were not so bad, as I never drove when I was drunk, never hurt anyone, and I always ended up in my bed at the end of the night. Until I did not. Went out one night to my usual spot (where the bartender's knew me by name) and ordered my usual (jack daniels neat). Next thing I know, it's 3:00 AM and I wake up naked in my bed - i slowly get oriented, and my glasses are broken, my wallet has random bills and my license in it, but my credit card and my money is gone, and my cell phone is missing. I wake up my roommate, get some water, and find out that this random guy called him from the bar and told him i was wasted and that he was going to take me home. That was at 10:00 pm. No idea what happened between 10 and when my roommate said i got home at 1:30. Roommate tells me to go back to sleep; which I can't do. Images of people laughing at me in black and white keep replaying in my head, and the room does not stop spinning. When my roommate finally gets up, he contacts the random guy, and we meet so he can give me back my cell phone, but he has no idea where my credit card is. I go get my glasses fixed, cancel my credit card, get a new one, and try and eat some food. Hangover lasts for about 2 days; and this was just after having one drink - not sure if this random guy drugged me somehow, or if i had a terrible reaction to the Jack Daniels or what. But I have not had a single drink of alcohol since that day, quit cold turkey, over 3 years ago
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Post by radientburner on Dec 1, 2016 19:51:16 GMT
This is a very important topic, and it would mean a lot to me if you guys can share your experiences. If you've read Hot Sissy, you've seen that myself and the people around me used drugs to avoid actually feeling the things that were going on at the time. If you think the book was exalting these things, you may have missed the point. If you can (anonymous is fine), please share your experiences with drugs and drug abuse (both prescription and illegal) both with yourself and those around you. -How have drugs affected you, your relationships and your future? -What are some of the positive experiences you've had? -Have you gotten in trouble with your health or the law? Have you lost anyone close to you? -Do you have a drug problem? If so, what happened that made you finally realize it? -What have you learned in regard to this theme and what are you still struggling with? I know this is a tough topic guys, but it's really important. Thanks! Dear Mr Emerson, I have been following you online for some time now. I have been dying to start a conversation. First, I wonder if I can help with HOOKED, I believe it is a NOBLE cause. As for substance abuse, it is something that has plagued me my entire live, from my beloved Dad who was an alcoholic, to my later years partying as a gay man in the 1990's (which I will admit dancing for 20 years on ecstasy to trance disco gave me the best experiences of my life) BUT...leaving me with a cocaine addition (which I beat) and smoking cigarettes (I am trying to beat) to my boyfriend of almost 18 years who is still struggling. I love this man so much I would do anything for him, I have stayed with him as his partner in good times and bad, and OFTEN it has been BAD, really BAD. However, we are fighting this together and I hope that in the end he will recover and we will live happily ever after (although he is an emotional Brazilian and life is NEVER without drama!) Max, I think very highly of you. Beyond your ever so subtle CT pictures and videos, which also make me laugh, I admire you very much. RadiantBurner (or Richard)
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Post by Lorenzo_Italy on Feb 3, 2017 20:45:47 GMT
the only drugs that i used in my life are....your sexy pics on instagram ^___^
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Post by rorick75 on Sept 28, 2017 4:13:44 GMT
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